My self-esteem is back on the come up. This past year it’s been the lowest it’s ever been to the point where It was getting too hard to deal with. But I’ve accepted how my life is now. i’ve accepted that the people that really care about you will always fight for you and the people that don’t, won’t. I know how my real friends are and that’s helped me patch up some problems i’ve had this year. I feel like I can trust in some people again and I feel safe in my own mind again. I’m not as depressed as I have been. I met someone that makes me feel like anything is still possible. So right I’d say I’m confident again.
14 - A description of the person I dislike the most.
I try to let things go you know, but just because I forgive doesn’t mean I ever have to forget. I have major trust issues now because people fuck you over so much you have no choice but to protect yourself because no one really has your best interest in mind anymore. I trusted him, I never really liked him or felt comfortable with him but I gave him the benefit of the doubt. Now, he can go fuck himself.
20. How my last kiss went down?
I was really really nervous (as always) I’ve never been the forward type but i kept getting the signals that it was okay to go in for a kiss. I wanted to wait to the right time and I knew it had come. My heart was pumping out of my chest and I think I was shaking lol. I just went in for the kiss. It was a little kiss on the lips. But she kissed me back! :D
21. Most embarrassing moment?
I don’t really know. I tend to embarrass myself a lot. I’ve fallen in public while skating (both on my inline skates and longboard) always in front of women too. I don’t know what my most embarrassing moment has been though.
31. The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me.
I wish I didn’t name my son after you.
33. An apology to someone that I should have given a long time ago.
This may sound like a douche thing to say but I don’t think I owe anyone any apologies. I’ve done all the apologizing I’ve possibly ever could. Its time for people to give a fuck about how I feel.
I would but it’s not bothering me that much. It’s just the fact that I can hear what they are talking about and it’s so close to my room. I’m already having enough trouble concentrating because I’m tumblin while I’m watching TV and I’m working up the energy to take off my right sock and get under the covers.