I’d make more text posts if I didn’t have to frequently use my on screen keyboard. But just know I’m
though I feel particularly depressed right now.
Just finished watching Do The Right Thing gonna watch a little of Jungle Fever.
I kind of want to cry but I’m distracting myself by typing
By the time I publish this the feeling will pass.
I feel like crying for no other reason than feeling like I suck
at being a good boyfriend/friend/son/brother/uncle/artist
I want to like
drink or smoke
but that’s counter productive
milk and cookies though…
Childish Gambino Meets Juan Epstein (NEW)
Donald hangs out with Rosenberg and Cyph for their Juan Epstein podcast and talks about: Music, The Wire, Jhene Aiko, Life and so much more
That interview Donald did for Noisey really got to me
I’ve felt/feel like that
that’s why I look up to him because he does everthing I’d like to do and he feels like how I feel
And it was weird reading his responses and hearing him talk about life like that and suicide. I’ve only ever heard him speak on that in that manner in his music.
So it was weird
and it made me feel some type of way
that’s an important interview
Dexter gets mad serious on ya’ll ass
So I started taking antidepressants again. I went to the doctor 2 months ago and he gave me a prescription. He’s a pretty doctor but that’s besides the point.
I was supposed to be referred to a psychiatrist but they sent the referral a month late. So now I’m moving in december and I only have 1 refill left. I know I can probably go back to get a refill but I do need to see a psychiatrist because I haven’t been diagnosed with depression, it was just pretty apparent to me that I was.
So my question is, should I try and see a psychiatrist now? or wait til after I move. I don’t want to build a dialogue with a person like that then leave but I also don’t know how that works.
I walk outside to spray paint the machete I just made and I say to myself “I hope there aren’t any cops around because this look suspicious as hell.” And literally 30 seconds later a cop drives by
and gets out his car to come see what I was doing. He didn’t consider it suspicious because it’s 4am in Savannah. Gonna miss that kind of freedom.
I’m in Ohio right now catching up on the internet
which is why all your notes just spiked.
Juliet’s birthday is tomorrow so we came up to visit her fam and friends.
Right now I’m sitting at her mom’s with Gambino and Thatcher (her brother’s dog) watching House.
They’re sleeping on separate couches and I’m watching House trying to figure out why I needed to write this instead of pee.
Went to a Sausage Fest today (which is an event Juliet’s dad organized with different sausage vendors.
I had the hot kielbasa
Going out in a few hours but I’m pretty tired. I only got a little over 3 hours of sleep yesterday. I had to go get Julie’s car fixed while she was at work and that took 5 hours so I didn’t get to pack or clean until 2 hours after we should have hit the road. And I didn’t get a good nap on the trip because Bino uses the passenger as a jungle gym.
I got at least a good 5 hours of sleep last night. Gambino kept whining and barking because he heard noises (he doesn’t like creepers)
I’m gonna linger around, maybe nap a little.
Gonna miss SNL tonight
which is fine
because you know
Miley is on
although I asked Juliet’s mom if I could DVR it. I’m serious about my SNL
smell ya later